Over the past few weeks/ years, even as a believer I have been trying to hide certain sins from God as well as held on to certain dreams. Lately He has been pressing on my heart my lack of love towards Him and others as well as asking me to let go of certain things. Tonight I was asked to let go of a lot of things and to be honest, some of those things were hard to give up, but one in particular, a dream that I thought would be God honoring, I did not give up, but was taken from me. Though I thought it was God honoring, God showed me that His will was completely different. I know, too, why it was taken away, just as I was to give all these other things up as well- It was to put God as my treasure and joy, that He would be my first love above all other things. I discovered I had fallen in love with all the other things and the one dream more than Him. Tonight was truly a rough night- probably one of the hardest I have had in the last several months, but I pray that it will be one that I will look back on and be grateful for what God has done so that I would not be hurt by things of this world that cannot last and were never mine to begin with. Some of this is pretty vague and I'm not all to sure if I want to share into detail what I was giving up, but I pray for all of you that you to, Christian or not, see how much Christ loves you and what in your life, seemingly innocent or not, has come between you and a deep and awesome relationship with Him.
Matthew 10:37-39 ESV "Whoever loves father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me, and whoever loves son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me. And whoever does not take his cross and follow Me is not worthy of Me. Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for My sake will find it."